Dreams.

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I wanted to be a teacher.
I wanted to be married at 21.
I wanted to have four kids and adopt one from china.
I wanted to live in a big house.
I wanted to make lots of money.
I wanted to be the mom that had the perfectly dressed kids and the adorable birthday parties.
I wanted to be someone little girls dreamed to be.
I wanted to live the American lifestyle.

I now want to be a mother to the motherless.
I want to raise kids that are not my own.
I now want to live in an orphanage.
I want to depend on God for every dollar.
I STILL want to be someone little girls can look up to.
I want to live the Peruvian dream.
I now want God to take me where love is NEEDED.

I didn't change my dreams but HE did.

When I started praying that the Lord would use me I noticed that my dreams started changing. I started daydreaming about working with orphans. I would lay awake at night and think about holding children that needed love.

You see, I am NO different then the average 21 year old. I just prayed a prayer that has turned my world upside down. I allowed God to give me a love for the broken.

I have even layed in bed some nights and thought about the things I will never have. What I will "miss out on" being on the mission field. But then I think of heaven and the 147 MILLION orphans that I want to bring with me.