Understanding.

I wish I didn't understand the cry for help tonight.

The cry from a little boy that looked at me and said "please, I'm poor."

I wish I could have said "no thank you" because I didn't understand and sleep tonight.

But I understood each word.

He was looking to me to save him.

But tomorrow he will be on the same street begging.

There are nights I lay in bed and wish I didn't know about the 147 million orphans.

I wish I had never held the hand of the fatherless.

I wish I could forget the little boy's cry for help.

I wish I could sleep in my bed, drive my car and be with my family.

But I have decided to pick up my cross and live out the Bible. So I want this verse to be how I live my everyday..

Proverbs 31:20
   She stretcheth out her hand to the poor; yea, she reacheth forth her hands to the needy.

Thankful.

I am thankful for the poor.

I am thankful for the dirty.

I am thankful for the hurting.

I am thankful for the hungry.

I am thankful for the beggar.
I am thankful for the unwanted.

I am thankful for the father/motherless.

I am thankful for the 147 MILLION ORPHANS.

I am thankful for a simple third world country called Peru.

Matthews25:35,36,40

For I was an hungred, and ye gave me meat: I was thirsty, and ye gave me drink: I was a stranger, and ye took me in:
  Naked, and ye clothed me: I was sick, and ye visited me: I was in prison, and ye came unto me.

...Verily I say unto you, Inasmuch as ye have done it unto one of the least of these my brethren, ye have done it unto me.


I am thankful that I can serve MY Jesus by serving "the least of these" daily.

I am thankful that when I am loving the unwanted I am loving HIM.

             
              This song goes so well with this post...

I am thankful that I saw there was more then the American dream. 

I will.

Will you be I will be HIS body for HIS child. HIS 147 MILLION children.

Dreams.

Picture from {in}courage.com

I wanted to be a teacher.
I wanted to be married at 21.
I wanted to have four kids and adopt one from china.
I wanted to live in a big house.
I wanted to make lots of money.
I wanted to be the mom that had the perfectly dressed kids and the adorable birthday parties.
I wanted to be someone little girls dreamed to be.
I wanted to live the American lifestyle.

I now want to be a mother to the motherless.
I want to raise kids that are not my own.
I now want to live in an orphanage.
I want to depend on God for every dollar.
I STILL want to be someone little girls can look up to.
I want to live the Peruvian dream.
I now want God to take me where love is NEEDED.

I didn't change my dreams but HE did.

When I started praying that the Lord would use me I noticed that my dreams started changing. I started daydreaming about working with orphans. I would lay awake at night and think about holding children that needed love.

You see, I am NO different then the average 21 year old. I just prayed a prayer that has turned my world upside down. I allowed God to give me a love for the broken.

I have even layed in bed some nights and thought about the things I will never have. What I will "miss out on" being on the mission field. But then I think of heaven and the 147 MILLION orphans that I want to bring with me. 

My neighbor.

I don't want to go to bed hungry.

I don't want to beg for money.

I don't want to drink dirty water.

I don't want my child to grow up alone.

I don't want to have to sell myself to live.

I don't want to make less then two dollars a day.

I don't want to live a hopeless nightmare then die to a never ending nightmare.

Mark 12:31
..Thou shalt love thy neighbour as thyself..


The person in the nice house beside of me is MY neighbor.


The woman pregnant by rape a town over is MY neighbor.


The dying man in Africa is MY neighbor.


The fatherless child in Peru is MY neighbor.


The millions around the world are MY neighbors.


So why are MY neighbors hungry, lonely, scared, and dying from preventable disease?

Am I not living out the Bible?

Am I not loving EVERY SINGLE ONE of MY NEIGHBORS? Am I just picking the ones that don't need as much help?


The question that makes me stay up at night is this...
What if I get to heaven and I meet the beggar I passed on the street and he says why didn't you stop and help me...

       

                   My new Peruvian life:

                                           My new life of studying!....

Writing questions on my hand so I can talk to people!

Eight Years Ago.

Eight years ago today God blessed my family with a bundle of joy we didn't know we needed.

A little boy named Taylor.

Taylor has taught me how to love others and put their needs before mine.
Taylor has taught me how to pray BIG.
Taylor has taught me what answered prayers look like.

Taylor has taught me how to be a mother.


GOD through Taylor took a teenager all about herself and turned her into a love others mothering adult.

HAPPY 8TH BIRTHDAY TAYLOR MATTHEW CLEMMER!

Tay-Tay always remember that I love you from Peru to our house and back! BUT Jesus loves you EVEN more!!!
I cant wait to see you and have our own birthday party!! LOVE YOU!!

                                                                                                          
The many times me and Taylor talked about Peru he was always unsure about it and that made me unsure.. But one day he looked at me and said "Maisie I want you to stay here because I will miss you, BUT I want you to go to Peru because I know you are going to help other kids.."

God showed me in that moment that Taylor understood the need for me to go try to save other children. And though I am missing his birthday for the first time... WE have ALL eternity to celebrate his life!

147 MILLION.

147 MILLION ORPHANS.
147 MILLION ORPHANS.
 147 MILLION ORPHANS.
 147 MILLION ORPHANS.
 147 MILLION ORPHANS.


No matter how I write it....
The number is the same..

No matter what I say...
They will still be orphans..

"You haven't been called"...
This is why the 147 MILLION will still be orphans.

I cannot do it on my own!.
I CANNOT save them all!.
I need HELP!.

Have you prayed about being "called"?
Have you truly prayed?

I prayed an almost faithless prayer for a year..
I prayed that God would send me..
That if He wanted me to move then to move me..

SO pray..
Not just one prayer..
But an everyday prayer that He would use you..

Pray that the 147 MILLION ORPHANS won't always be orphans.